My Birthweek Celebration
… because 1 day is certainly not enough.

Tuesday the 1^st
Peppinos
This was the very beginning of one of the most chill weeks I’ve ever experienced. Nothing much really… went to lunch with Dan Davis (: I’m so envious of you, Dan, because you’re going to Japan and that has always been a place where I’ve wanted to go! It’s okay though because vicarious experiences can be just as amazing as first-hand ones so when you come back, you better tell me all about it (: Anywayyy… after lunch I got him a little Bon-Voyage present that consisted of a little first aid kit, a tide-to-go pen, and a deck of cards. I tried to go for utility but I suppose it ended up as clutter… but that’s alright because it’s the thought that counts, right?

Fast-forward to…

Friday the 4^th
Lakewood, Hollywood, & La Mirada
Woke up around noon (as always) then went to my grandma’s house for a family party for all the July birthdays in conjunction with a lil’ bit of fireworks action in light of Independence Day. It was pretty chill to just kick it with the fam but the real fun was about to unfold that very night. So I’m stuck in the 562 lookin’ for something to do with my cousin so we end up going clubbing. I must say I had sooooooooo much fun that night. My cousin (Stefanie) and I went with her bf, Rico, and her other homey, Kevin, to Avalon in Hollywood around midnight and it was so chill because we got in with no cover and we stayed until 3:30 am (: Despite the fruitless efforts of several eager 40-year old-men who tried to steal some dances, I had a wonderful time (and I’d like to thank Kevin who had to continually save me from creepers all night long). ANYWAY… got home around 4, slept at my cousin’s casa in La Mirada, and then went home around noon the next day. Which brings us to …

Saturday the 5^th
DB & The Yacht (is that really what you guys are naming it?)
Allsigottasay is that… Saturday was a pretty chill day. Went to DB and saw one of the most epic scenes of my life. Just as we’re driving we come across a fire. Yes, a fire. We end up stopping in the middle of the street and right in front of us, we see 4 or 5 fire trucks pull up with blazing lights and a fleet of fire fighters come rushing out towards the dry bush. And right when we thought it couldn’t become any more heroic we looked up and saw a helicopter drop a grip of water right in front of our very eyes. I was completely taken aback by it. I didn’t know what to say except … where does his family live because we’re pretty close to his area already… and … why the ef did I not bring my camera?!?! While in DB we saw his house, got some grub, and went to Pinkberry (: After DB, I just chilled at The Yacht and saw J-Panties & Bosquito (: I was so happy to see them! I haven’t seen j-panties since I don’t even know when, and I haven’t seen Bosco since Sierra! (oh, Sierra, how I miss you). Besides that, I just laid around and played videogames—hah, my kind of day (: 

Sunday the 6^th
Irvine Improv & Hugz
Pretty laid back day as well (: Went to go see Rex Navarette at the Irvine Improv with Samuel Estacio. Eventually met up with my brother and Leslie but we saw other people there too like Matt Le, Darryl, Angelo, and some of my sister’s high school friends who have apparently known me since I was 5 or something, hah. Fricken Rex was an amazing performer. His jokes were so funny and it seemed so personalized because only Filipinos could truly understand them. I must say that I haven’t laughed for that hard and for so long in a very long time. It was a nice way to just kick back, listen, and have a good time. After the Improv we hung out with Sonia, Stan, and Faigao at Hugz and we watched some dance comp vids and made fun of Faigao’s gigantic hair. Propz them for counting down the minutes with me and being the first to say ‘happy birthday’! Yay! Oh, we went to Chizza for Tizza as well… I miss that mango green tea so much<3 Yay for Sunday! When I got home, something happened that got me rather irritated… but it all ended well and I’ve come to terms with what happened. That’s all I got to say about that.

Monday the 7^th
Hugz, SSPS 6^th Floor, & The Penthouse
Woke up around noon (heh), went to Hugz to say wasup to Sam and Vyvy then made my way to The Penthouse for dinner (: First and foremost, I’d like to thank Connie Li and Indira Singh for putting everything together! I really appreciate everything you guys did for me that day and it made me soooo happy! Connie made dinner (which was pretty much the most amazing homemade dinner I’ve ever had in my entire life) and a nice little bottle of Sangria for me. (FYI, Sangria is my newfound lover and I’d make sweet love to it any day of the week.) ANYWAY, we had dinner around 8 and I was so happy because my loves were there! The Sierrans I saw over that night included: Connie, Indi, Hanna (+ jfree), Danielle, Tim Khuu, Denny, Iris, Vyvy, Shreena, Krupa (+ friends/fam), Mayur, Angelo, Nick, Darryl, and Step Brotha Sean-na-na (: I’m so glad that you guys made the effort to come out and it really made me happy to see all of you guys there with me. I think I would have felt more sentimental… if I weren’t so filled with joy (and Sangria) but really, seeing you guys made my day. Everything that happened before that just flew out the door and I felt like I was at home again<3 So after some dinner, we made a rash trip to go see SPOP Modern’s preview night but we missed it. When we came back there was a cake (yay!) and then we just chillaxed and played a round of King’s Cup (boo for me being everyone’s partner… and yay for Vyvy being mine!). Half way through, kduh came over (yay!) and we all just chiilllllled. Even Henry made an appearance (: That night I slept The Penthouse and had wild sex with p-chan while wearing my queen bitch crown all night long. The end.

Tuesday the 8^th
Pantages Theater, Hollywood
Kduh took me to see Wicked. Such an amazing day (: I’m actually really surprised that by that time, I still had no idea where he was taking me. Despite close calls when people actually revealed the secret right next to me, I honestly didn’t know what was in store for me that day. I didn’t figure it out till we got there and saw the gigantic billboard, lol. Well, we were early so we walked around Hollywood & Vine and even went into the Amoeba Music store and shopped around. It was rather awkward because we were in semi-formal attire but it was all good. After, when we went into the theater I was so amazed. The Pantages Theater is so beautiful and the ambience was so perfectly matched to the occasion. Ah, I don’t know how to explain it… but it was very, very classy (: Oh, and don’t even get me started on the actual show. Absolutely amazing. The story was incredible, the songs were breathtaking, the dancing was marvelous. At no time was my mind wandering elsewhere and I couldn’t be anywhere except at the edge of my seat. I really liked it and I had a really good time (: After Wicked, we went to Guppy for some late night popcorn chicken & brick toast and then we headed back to Irvine. *sigh* such a marvelous day<3  

Wednesday the 9^th
You&I
Chilled with Romeezy & Kduh at the Yacht for a little bit then Sami & Thomas came to pick us up and we went to You&I. Surprisingly filling all-you-can-eat sushi, FTW. I had the most fantastic food coma after dinner and that practically made my entire day. Thanks, Thomas<3  

WELL… To conclude this phenomenal week, I want to say that in the past, my birthday was just a one day thing… but that one day was jam-packed with a long list of festivities that were tiring but nonetheless amazing. This year was a little different because it happened over the span of an entire week and each day had something to do that didn’t take from sun up to sun down. I really enjoyed this week and I owe it all to the amazing friends that I’ve made over my first year of college. If anything, this week has really put into perspective how special it is to have friends that truly and whole-heartedly care about you. I appreciate every single thing that happed over the last week and I promise that when it comes time, I’ll put the effort into your birthdays as you did with mine. I love you guys with all my heart and I’ll never forget all you have done for me.

x33 Stacey

Hello, world, it's been a very long time since I've even glanced at this page. In retrospect, I must say that I'm rather embarrassed by this entire website. Firstly, my name is 'miz laydee cripstuh' ... wow... I don't even know what to say about that. Secondly, my profile picture. Oh, how photoshop does wonders to one's complexion. And lastly, it's rather entertaining to read my old blogs. Most of them are from 2+ years ago but it's just so funny to think, 'damn, did i really write this?' Overall, I'd like to say: xanga, you have served me well and I can't wait to delve further back into those crazy high school years and see how far I've come since then. Oh, the nostalgia (:

ANYWAY ... I suppose the main reason I came back to this page in the first place was to find a safe place where I can blog about what's on my mind. I know that myspace and facebook can both serve the same function, but there's something about returning to this old xanga that gives me a sense of privacy; possibly because most of my new college friends have failed to find this undiscovered piece of me (or so I think). Also, it's strange that I'm actually blogging online because for the last few years, it hasn't been a big part of my online life. I must say that I'd rather talk to appropriate people because I know that they'd offer meaningful insight and probably a better view on my situations at hand. Well, with that said, let’s see what pours out of my mind right now.

Topic of choice: Relationships
Rather ambiguous but more so open to interpretation.

In terms of relationships, I’ve been really thinking about a lot of things. Lately, I’ve been having pretty complicated feelings and upon talking to friends, it’s all boiled down to one question: what do I really want? One would think that this question would be so easy because of its simplicity, but realistically, its simple nature is what makes it very difficult to answer. Honestly, I’m not even sure of what I want so let’s ask some awkwardly rhetorical questions, shall we? (lol who am I talking to? -__-;)

Do I want to be in a relationship? No. Not yet at least.
Am I even looking for one? Maybe, not sure.
If I find the right person, will I go for it? Maybe; leaning towards no.
What am I looking for? Ooh this is a good one. Ahh, let’s expand.

So, one of the joys of being single is that you are able to look, shop around, see what’s in store for the future. To me, this is one of the most exciting feelings I’ve ever had because for the longest time, I’ve never even had the opportunity to do so. So what am I looking for? YES. I’m looking for someone to grow with. Someone who will learn with me. I want someone who values growth and maturity. I’m looking for a mature relationship where it doesn’t make me feel like I’m regressing back to my high school years. I'm searching for someone who isn’t clingy because when they’re comfortable enough in their own skin, they don’t need to be attached to mine. On the other hand, when we are physically together I think being clingy (as in cupcaking or cute PDA is one of the highlights of being in a relationship) is very much acceptable to me. I want someone who will teach me to how believe in trust and to help cure me of my struggle with jealousy. I want someone who can push me past my comfort level because I believe that this plays a big part in one’s quest for growth and maturity. I know that I’m sounding rather picky and almost meticulous when describing what kind of relationship I’m looking for but at least I have something to aim for. (:

On a lighter note, there are also some frivolous things I’m looking for as well. I’m not going to lie… I want someone who is as crazy for me as much as I am for them. After long serious talks about today and tomorrow I want someone who has that certain something for me, if you know what I mean. His passion to improve must be as strong as his passion for ahem, you know. Not that, you perverts… just… passion, hah. Secret, spontaneous kisses in semi-public places… someone to laugh with… someone to wreak havoc with… someone to be my unrelenting partner in crime. That’s right; I said it. Spontaneity is something that makes me smile (:

Overall, I think that’s all I have to say about that. I know I probably have more things that I’m looking for but for now, this shall do. Besides, the other things I’m looking for are either too blatantly straightforward (plays guitar, wears Nikes, gamer-extraordinaire, dancer) or is rooted too far into my subconscious that it can only be pinpointed if I actually see it in front of me. So, yea. That’s all (:  

Ah, one more thing: ‘Do I want to be in a relationship right now?’ I have come to a solution for this fundamental question. So here goes:

All I want to do is go with the flow. Something I learned in college this past year was just to let things happen on their own because things tend to unfold as they should. I don’t want to push for things to happen nor do I want to out of my way to avoid things either. Whatever happens—happens; and no matter what the outcome is, I will make the best out of it and realize that things happen for a reason.

Hah, this blog is actually rather ironic. I’m putting a lot of effort into trying to make sense out my current situation all the while I am writing about how I should lay back and let time carry it out for me. But that’s the beauty of blogging, isn’t it? Through writing this thing, I’ve learned something about myself that I wouldn’t have known before and on top of that I feel a lot more at ease with myself in general. *sigh of relief* Well, I guess that solves it for me. Hah, thanks xanga. God bless simplicity.

P.S. Why weren’t any of my Sierra journals this self-realizing? Hah… oh, Sierra, how I miss you.